Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Stupid Genetics

Like most diseases, mental illness does have a genetic link. Family history is questioned at every appointment. However a lot of the mental illness is not reported or discussed due to the bad stigma that was associated with the various mental diseases.

For a while I was having a good run.

I was on a roll.

The medicine, the therapy, the follow up doctor appointments all seemed to be working.

I felt good.

I felt physically and mentally healthy.

My life seemed to be in a really good spot.

 I had a nice house.

 I had a great family.

I did not feel like anxiety or depression were affecting me at all.

No panic attacks in a long time.

Slowly but surely I cut back on the meds.

I stopped going to therapy.

I stopped following up with my doctor.

I was on a roll.

I had this thing under control.

Then my uncle shot himself.


  1. Was that Wall Park where you dressed up like drunken Spiderman to hand out postcards for Action Arts?

  2. I'm so sorry about your Uncle. My Grandfather committed suicide when I was in high school. Its such a weird grieving process, sadness mixed with frustration and even anger.

    Depression is such a tricky beast. It can feel like you've finally beat it, just to have it rear up just as big and bad as before. But you have amazing tools in your arsenal, and even more important, you know that you can use them. Keep on the path friend.